40+5

I had my appointment with the consultant this afternoon and it didn't really go how I wanted it to. In my head she was going to say 'here is a pill, take it and when you wake up it'll all be over. Your baby will be fine and you'll be in no pain.' That didn't happen.

She checked the baby - fine. She offered to do a membrane sweep (I was hoping she would) and I quickly accepted. I took deep breaths whilst she went about her business but because my cervix was so tightly closed it was unsuccessful. Cue major pain and a funny turn that nearly resulted in passing out. I wanted to cry very hard, this is not what was supposed to happen. She measured my swollen ankle and sent me for a scan to rule out DVT. That was ruled out and then I had to go back to see her with the results.

I am booked in for my induction next Friday. I'll have a baby by Monday (If she doesn't come on her own before then) and it'll all be over. Meanwhile I'm in a lot of pain. Being prodded and poked isn't very nice anyway but when you have achey bones it's even worse. I'm going to have to go and have a cry now and eat a big bar of chocolate.