It feels like Friday already.
Seeings as I started this blog full of honesty, wearing my heart on my sleeve, I shall continue to do so. I share my life with you, so I'm going to keep on sharing.
Things are pretty crappy at the moment. My husband and I have been going through a rough patch for, well, pretty much most of the last year or so. We're both to blame. We've both done wrong. We both tried to fix it.
Unfortunately it just hasn't worked out for us so for now Lil and I will be staying at my Mums and he shall see her as much as he wants to. I must clarify, I will never keep him from seeing her. People find ways to twist words so I just want you all to be clear.
Will we find a way to make it work? Maybe. Maybe not. Right now I need to clear my head.
What hasn't helped the already heavy strain on our relationship is malicious comments with regards to my mothering of our daughter, not by him, by someone in his family. It's hard enough being a Mother without people sticking their nose in to something they have no experience in. I feel sad that my blog has been taken out of context and has been used against me and I'm deeply upset I've been accused of being a 'bad mother'.
So I've decided to take a break from writing about my journey as a mother. Maybe I should have started writing anonymously. My aim was always to be honest. My friends and close family know that I often say things in jest and I rarely mean them. Maybe I'll start a new blog, anonymously, so nobody can judge me for the things I say. Maybe I just won't bother. What I will continue to do is be a good mother for my daughter.
I hope you've all enjoyed my, our, journey. I want to thank you all for your support over the past year. You've all inspired me to continue my journey honestly. I will be back. Next week, next month, next year. I'm not sure. But for now I need to keep Lilian's world a happy one. She is my priority, she is my life.
Take care everyone.
See you soon xxxxx